exaltation by death

mars enters capricorn

I want to die a painful death. I want to feel the excruciating pain of love leaving my body to exist in some higher realm. I want my husband to sing love songs to me every night so when he dies I can remember how he made me feel, each one the next one in my death by a thousand cuts. I want to get right into it as if there’s no way out. I want no threat of leaving, I want to let love (w)in.